Day 3

It's a good thing you guys are all on this ride with me, good or bad. Here's the first bit of a bump....Today's weight: 180 Up from yesterday by half a pound. This is why it's not good for some people to weigh every day. They might get discouraged by that. But I know what I did wrong, and I plan on fixing it today!

Yesterday's foods:

Over the course of the entire day, I believe I had ten 8 oz glasses of water, but I lost count...

Breakfast: 7:30 am

Grande Nonfat Vanilla Latte from Starbucks...Hey, it was free...but the first indulgence of the day. Lots of calories...and sugar cuz I can't do the sugar free syrup..anyway....Cream of wheat with 1/2 of a banana and 2 oz milk, and a sprinkle of sugar.

"Snack": 11:15

3 small Laffy Taffy, 2 Ritz crackers

Lunch: 12:15

1/2 pear, 1/2 baked potato, 1/2 cup cooked broccoli, 1/4 cup cheddar cheese, 2 T light sour cream, 2 slices bacon, 1/2 container Yoplait yogurt, green tea

Snack: 4:00 (after work out)

protein bar, 20 Dots candies

Dinner: 6:30

5 baby carrots, 1/2 cup whole grain spaghetti, 3 oz ground turkey, 1 pureed Roma tomato, 1 T. Parmesan cheese, water to drink

Went Nuts Snack: 8:30

mini oreos...finished the bag...maybe 15, Hot Tamales 15 (numbers are approximate...I was in some type of stupor and wasn't really counting)

After three days of writing down when I'm eating, and what I'm eating, I am noticing a couple of things I need to do differently. And I am also gonna need to figure out one real problem...

First issue is, I need to incorporate a morning snack. I feel so full after my breakfast, I guess I am thinking I will be fine until lunch. This has not been the case, and I end up grabbing stuff I shouldn't. I need to plan for this morning snack. Second issue is, I need to get all the candy out of the house. We do not usually have candy around all the time, but again, I chose to self sabotage and bought some that was on sale, 'for everybody else', but indeed bought things I liked. At least the last of the Christmas stocking candy is gone after today...

I made it to the gym in the afternoon for 30 minutes on the elliptical and 15 minutes of an upper body work out, along with 10 minutes of stretching. An afternoon workout helps with the part of my day that is usually really tough for snacking. I had a protein bar right after, but was weak and opened up the Dots I bought just a little while after.

I made cheeseburgers for the family last night, and then made myself something different. I am tracking my foods on livestrong.com but also sparkpeople.com. I like both of them for different reasons, but I like sparkpeople because they give you meal plans. I have been using that plan to get ideas and a bit of variety. The experiment for last night, at my meal plan suggestion, was using a pureed tomato as a sauce for ground turkey and putting it over spaghetti. I was really not looking forward to it as I saw the ground turkey soaking up the pale red tomato on the stove while I fixed the yummy cheeseburgers for the others. I added Italian seasoning, some salt, pepper, garlic powder, onion powder, and a bit of water to the turkey. I had whole grain spaghetti on hand, so tried that for the first time. I was actually surprised at how good this concoction was! The parmesan cheese that I added on top really helped to finish it up. I was stuffed after eating it and ready to go about my evening.

However, within about 45 minutes, there was this huge empty hole in my stomach. And this has been an issue every night. At first, I do my best to just drink water and tell myself I'll fight it until it's time for bed. And every night, this hasn't worked. So, this is my 'real problem' right now. I'm eating a good dinner, but my body is craving more and more at night. And I continue to do the wrong things when I'm feeling this...And last night was just a disaster. I pretty much said to hell with it, and started shoving things in my mouth. I was not surprised to see my weight go up this morning. Even without the 8 pm snacking disaster, I had gone over my allotted amount of calories for the day. For the most part, over the last year, I did not go crazy like this. Notice I said, for the most part...of course I must have, over the course of a year, but I don't recall losing it in my head like that. I need to figure out why things are different right now than they have been over the last year. Maybe it's because I haven't had a beer in a while :)

Day 3: A wake up call that something is amiss. Too much candy, but eating some good things too. Good thing there's always tomorrow! (or today, rather!)