Day 6

It was a good day. I felt good the whole day. I ate some 'wrong' things. But I had a good day! I will not beat myself up like the last day I overindulged. It happens. Just so it doesn't happen every day!

Breakfast: 8:00 am

4 oz extra lean (99% fat free) ground turkey and 1 oz cheddar cheese, in 1/2 flour tortilla, 1/2 pear, 4 oz skim milk

Snack: 11:00

5 oz 1% cottage cheese

Lunch: 1 1/2 cups raw spinach, 1/2 cup mandarin oranges, 1 T. red wine vinegar, 1 tsp olive oil

Snack: 3:30

protein bar

Do I really have to write the rest of the day? Ok, here goes:

"Losing it" snack: 4:15-4:45

1/2 cup dry Life cereal, 10 Ritz crackers, 5 Lays potato chips

Dinner: 5:45

1 slice ham/pineapple pizza, 1 hot wing, 1 bread stick, 1 cinnabread stick

"Oh No, There's a Snack Bar at Bingo" Snack: 8:30

Reese's Peanut Butter Cups (2), Mr. Pibb, 1 mozzarella cheese stick

Can you believe I went over the amount of calories I was supposed to have yesterday? Crazy, isn't it? I was actually 'saving' some calories for when I was going to Bingo. I wanted to be able to enjoy a little treat while I was there. However, at 4:15 in the afternoon, I pretty much ate my way through my remaining calories in a snack frenzy. Got too hungry, and grabbed what I shouldn't. This is obviously an area I need to work on. And trying to save calories for later may not have been the best choice. I realize I should have sat down at that point and had a salad or something. The other thing that seems to happen is once I 'mess up', I just decide to say to heck with it and continue to mess up the rest of the night. This is so contrary to my philosophy that I have had the last year. I was able to indulge in a little, and stop. This is why my weight loss was successful before. I didn't deny myself anything, but I didn't have these binges either. Holy psychological dysfunction! Better get this one figured out or I will find myself gaining weight on this 12 week challenge!

I ordered pizza for the kids, and for my son's band that was here practicing. (Remember, I was going to Bingo and was going to eat a little something there.) I tend to want to make everyone happy...imagine that. But I know full well, when I order that pizza, and hot wings, and cinnabread, that I will want some. Just like the donuts and candy I bought earlier in the week. The issue, though, is I am not stopping. It wouldn't have been so bad if I had the pizza and everything, if I had just stopped with that.

Part of life is being social, and having fun. And most social things and fun things have food involved. I started out the night at Bingo full, and with a bottle of water. We were sitting right by the snack bar, and there were enticing smells being emitted. I really thought I was gonna make it without walking to that snack bar. But I was craving chocolate, and I was feeling tired. I went for the caffeine pop and my favorite candy bar. It is absolutely possible to be social and have fun without indulging. I know this. I just didn't listen to that voice in my head last night. Something about the setting...the sitting there blotting those squares...just made me want to eat. I better not become a Bingo addict!

Day 5: Not beating myself up. This stuff happens. Twice this week so far is unfortunate, but I will be blaming PMS. :)